But when I become a star we'll be livin so large, I'll do anything for you

My first REAL semester of college is creeping so quickly. I'm so terrified. . It's so stressful. The worst part is the loans. Half of it is in "legal-ese", a term made up by one of my co-workers for me lol, and the other half I'm pretty sure isn't even in English.
It's so hard to get excited for Christmas and my fast-approaching 20th birthday because there's still so much to do. I need everything pretty much from supplies to bedding.
I have my advising day on Friday December 11th. I'm so nervous. I'm going to call tomorrow (well since it's 3:00 AM that'd be today) and see if I can make an appointment with the Financial Aid people at SCSU and get help. I'm so confused.
It'll all get sorted out, I know it will. Life is just hard sometimes.

Little Tiny Update

I filled out my housing application today. Now I just have to wait for my financial aid to go through and then I can pay the $250 Application Fee/Housing Deposit. Ugh, I hate money. If only the world currency were sauce packets, I'd have enough to go to Harvard. Ha ha.

A Little Update.

I got my information for registering for an advising day. That's basically my campus tour day or first year student day. I'll update more when I have more information.

I'm a HUSKY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I got accepted into Saint Cloud State University!!! I found out on-line first. I took a picture of the webpage. A couple days later I got my acceptance letter and packet in the mail. I'll put up a picture of that as soon as my camera is up and running again :) I'm so happy and so nervous.

i've got to move on and be who i am

So right now I'm working on my application for Saint Cloud State University. I really, really need to get out of my parents' house and this town even. It's going to hard and I'm going to be lonely for a while but I really think I need this.

The Final Plan

So I finally made a decision: I'm going to Century!!!! Also, I'm moving out soon.

Argh!

WHY CAN'T SOMEONE JUST TELL ME WHERE TO GO TO COLLEGE? WHY DOES IT HAVE TO BE SO DAMN DIFFICULT? WHY? why can't I just live a life that has been planned for me, event by event, moment for moment? I HATE HATE HATE making decisions, just ask anyone I've ever dated. I suck at it. I never thought it would be this hard. I know what I want to do, just not where I want to do it. I'm so crabby when people ask me about school now. I DON'T EFFING KNOW! QUIT EFFING ASKING ME! GAH!