Argh!

WHY CAN'T SOMEONE JUST TELL ME WHERE TO GO TO COLLEGE? WHY DOES IT HAVE TO BE SO DAMN DIFFICULT? WHY? why can't I just live a life that has been planned for me, event by event, moment for moment? I HATE HATE HATE making decisions, just ask anyone I've ever dated. I suck at it. I never thought it would be this hard. I know what I want to do, just not where I want to do it. I'm so crabby when people ask me about school now. I DON'T EFFING KNOW! QUIT EFFING ASKING ME! GAH!